it comes and it goes…
as we drive back home, the sun setting beyond the trees, my mind drifts. the radio plays the latest top ten hits for the month..teenagers everywhere are singing at the top of their lungs, moms in minivans are shaking their heads, and dads are hoping that their daughters grow up to be less naive. i gaze out the window of the car wondering what i will miss….what song will hit record highs, what movie will break box office potentials everywhere, but this trip is not about what will be missed but rather what i will capture-from the world. ten months on the boat has redefined my perspective of life, my values, my beliefs, the way i look at myself. for the better- i know who i am. tough decisions had to be made…still need to be made. i have to watch my sisters grow from afar, participate in my friends’ good fortune through facebook, experience love through written letters and pictures past. venturing forward i have everything to gain. the sea will teach me things no piece of land will be able to do, the boat will mold me in a way no house can move, and cultures new will
open my eyes in ways the united states is unable to comprehend. adventure, risk, chance, growth, passion. this path is mine to forge, nobody to question, one i will not be traveling alone. what i imagine, what is reflected and what is reality will fold together when the time is right. when the time is right i’ll know. when i know, great things will be produced. there is no better feeling in this world than that of serving a purpose. a purpose not advantageous of only you. a purpose improving the lives of those around you in which ever way needed. help for others is help for all. i look at the sun rise, quickly, i lose my self in the sunset, slowly. up over the ocean, down into the ocean. the wind pulls me where i need to go. thoughts now, memories later, i stand where i am. out of my element i find myself. unexpected i find others. knowingly i discover anger does not become me doubting only troubles me. good friends, new found family, and even better listeners bring happiness to my life…this is where i am at my best. this is where i excel. i smile at the end of the day. tomorrow will be better.
